With Stage 3 ending, and all of us celebrating whats been going on, we have missed an important member to the Overwatch community. No, they did not pass away, but to some of us, it feels that way.
If you have been in the Overwatch for any amount of time, you have probably come across the name “Jayne”. Assistant Coach to the Dallas Fuel, and beloved teacher and guide for those that follow him on Twitch, Youtube, and other social media platforms. He has taught us how to play the game we love. He helped develop the community that we love. When I think of an Overwatch Coach, that hat is worn by none other than Jayne. He is the goat, and has every right to be called such. Unfortunately, people took advantage of the person we looked up to as a figurehead to the community.
Jayne has decided to quit all means of social media, and by the context of his letter posted on twitter, that includes Twitch and Youtube as well. The reason behind this is a shock to many, but to some, they saw it coming. The pressure coming from the community and colleagues was more than Jayne could handle. Don’t take this in a negative sense. That’s the last thing I want to have this portrayed as. Colleagues started seeing Jayne as less than an individual, and as more of a mean to gain clout, or to boost their own popularity. He started discovering that the more successful and prestigious he go in the community, the more he start realizing things. To quote Jayne,
They were doing what they were doing because they loved their craft, and they loved interacting with people, and for no other reason… but then suddenly one day you wake up and you’re popular, and two major things happened.
You have a lot of money, and you have no friends.
Sure you had friends when you started this journey, but you don’t anymore.
You’re different now.
You’re successful, even if it was on accident.
You’re just not like them anymore.
Can’t make new friends either – your reputation precedes you.
People stop treating you like you’re a human being because you’re foreign to them now.
You drift apart from the people who you were friends with, from the people who helped get you to where you are, and then they abandon you, saying things like “I can’t believe he was really like that all this time,” and then they start to hate you too.
Jayne openly states that he has suffered depression in the past and still does. It is something very hard to beat, and I can personally attest to that. Jayne tried all that he could to come to people for help. He left signs, dropped clues, and when he was at his end, when all he wanted was someone to have his back, he was pushed away and told no.
“So what is the point of this article?”, you may ask. Well in part it is to make people aware of what Jayne plans on doing in a shorter format. It is also to bring awareness to depression and mental health in the eSports scene. It is common and it is a problem. A full discussion on the topic will be for a later date. I want everyone to know that we support Jayne in his endeavor for mental health. So I guess in part this is for Jayne to hear himself. We all appreciate you Jayne. Even the 10% appreciate you in some way. The community you have created is very appreciative of what you have done for us. You have touched so many people in a positive way. No matter what you have done, your community forgives you. No matter what you are going through, we support you. No matter what others say we got your back.
At times it does just get to much to handle.
So Jayne has quit social media, however, Jayne says that he wants to continue doing what he loves. Which to him is the Overwatch community. This makes me believe he will still be Assistant Coach of the Dallas Fuel, however I am uncertain to him making Youtube or Twitch content. A lot of his troubles came from Twitch, where he was unable to truly interact with his chat, his community. I can understand his frustration with this.
I’m a small streamer myself (about 8 consistent viewers). I really like these people that I have met. I am good friends with them after I started streaming. If i got so big that I was unable to interact or include them into what I’m doing the stream, or even just talking to them, I would be incredibly unhappy. This is what Jayne wanted to avoid, and when it got to the point that Jayne no longer felt connected to his chat, to his community, it became too much for him.
Jayne, if you are out there reading this, just know that we are here for you! Me, Soesic eSports, and all of the Overwatch community has your back.
I recommend those that have not, please read Jayne’s full letter to the community. Don’t take my article here as concrete.
Dakota ‘Glacial’ Lee